I have not been on for a while but this month has been so
eye-opening. I have spent many hours just being at uni and doing work, coming
home late and repeating the same cycle. I got over 80% in two of my assignments
and passed a law exam with over 80% too (pass mark is 70%, imagine)! There were
times when I received the results that I actually did not believe it and I
would go onto the uni system to refresh the page or visit it multiple times to
see if that was actually the case.
I feel so proud of myself and also really tired. I have to
finish two assignments by the 2nd of February because I am going to go and see
my sisters and Mom in Glasgow which I am looking forward to!
I met up with a friend I have not seen since March last year. I
have known her since 2013, when I started uni in England. Long story short, her
Mom got ill last year and that resulted in her repeating her year so she could
care for her. I don’t know why, but I wanted to give her Mom a gift. I
remembered when I was in first year, we had Secret Santa in Christmas. We were
assigned £10 to spend on a person we got at random. I got given my Taiwanese
flatmate as the person I had to get a gift for. I remember I bought her
a ‘kompoloi’ (strand of beads popular in many cultures used for passtime
or prayer) that I found on ebay which was made of beautiful marble and mixed
rose/peach colors on metal strand. I tried finding the same or one model in a
different color from the same seller but it was a unique piece.
I was still fixated on getting her this gift, even if I could
not find the one I wanted so I thought of asking my brother to make a similar
model. He made a similar one with smaller lilac beads he bought from a vintage
market in Beirut and was cotton stranded, non-looped. The funny story is that I
thought of this idea in the summer.
Want to hear a strange coincidence? In November, my friend
posted a picture of a tattoo she got on the inside of her arm that her Mom chose for her. It was an ‘om’ -
a weapon of a Hindu god used to fight his battles connected to none other than
prayer beads! When I saw the picture, I got goosebumps. I had not told her or
anyone of what I was thinking to do apart from my brother who was going to make
the piece.
I saw my friend yesterday, after months of not having seen her
and gave her the kompoloi. Her family were very humbled and her Mom asked when
I was going to visit so she could cook for me! The reason I am telling this
story is that, sometimes funny coincidences happen and they are totally based
on gut instinct. I feel so glad and humbled to make them feel happy and put a
smile on their faces and the fact that my brother got to be a part of it is
even better because I felt I understood his profession and the gift of giving
even more. The fact that you can create something that can hold so much
meaning.
Also, fun story, I came out to her and she took it so well. I
realize how much I have grown. I didn't tell course mates or friends when I was
in my first years because I didn't want to make it a big deal and,
unfortunately, I thought they would distance themselves or stop being my friend
or feel like by disclosing my sexuality that I would fancy them. She even
apologised for not being there for me last year which I found really sweet! We
discussed about relationships and priorities in life and uni. I do believe I
learned a lot about life and myself when I was with my previous girlfriend. I
do feel, however, that I would not have achieved as much if I was still with
her. Not because she was holding me back but because time is fixed and being in
a long-distance relationship, you have to input the time you don’t see them in
physically by talking/Skyping etc.
I do not regret anything I have been through as it made me who I
am today and I am happy as to where I am although I know there is always room
for progress in this life.
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Copyright © M.E.S.