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Today was an important day which brings me one step closer to getting the opportunity to practice my profession (at least in one way). All the years of hard work, missing holidays, birthdays, seeing family, friends, lovers.. rearranging meetings, fitting in a few coffees or gatherings.. it all came down to today. The anticipation, the exhaustion (physical and emotional) came out. The stuff leading up to it is almost comical. My wrist getting sprained, getting my period a week early, getting the cold..!
The things that have happened leading up to this really don't matter when I think about it. They don't matter but they also had to take place for me to be where I am today.
On the train back to York I saw the coast leaving Sunderland.. it was so beautiful. The weather was so sunny.. not a cloud in the sky. I saw old classmates.. people with whom I have grown and laughed with since I started this journey.
I am so humbled to have gathered these experiences but it also opened my eyes to the variety of opportunities out there. While learning is never immobile, I really would like to finally ''seal'' this phase, close the book and open a new chapter. With this title, I hold a title of pride and responsibility. Accountability and openness. Safeguarding and valour in the face of corruption or the easy route. Damn the easy route but also, damn the part of me mourns for my youth. Damn our fixation with youth. It is going but there is more life to come.
I want to really value the small things, to live with all my senses. Sometimes there is a security to living vicariously, but there is an empty charm awaiting to be seized.
Today was an important day which brings me one step closer to getting the opportunity to practice my profession (at least in one way). All the years of hard work, missing holidays, birthdays, seeing family, friends, lovers.. rearranging meetings, fitting in a few coffees or gatherings.. it all came down to today. The anticipation, the exhaustion (physical and emotional) came out. The stuff leading up to it is almost comical. My wrist getting sprained, getting my period a week early, getting the cold..!
The things that have happened leading up to this really don't matter when I think about it. They don't matter but they also had to take place for me to be where I am today.
On the train back to York I saw the coast leaving Sunderland.. it was so beautiful. The weather was so sunny.. not a cloud in the sky. I saw old classmates.. people with whom I have grown and laughed with since I started this journey.
I am so humbled to have gathered these experiences but it also opened my eyes to the variety of opportunities out there. While learning is never immobile, I really would like to finally ''seal'' this phase, close the book and open a new chapter. With this title, I hold a title of pride and responsibility. Accountability and openness. Safeguarding and valour in the face of corruption or the easy route. Damn the easy route but also, damn the part of me mourns for my youth. Damn our fixation with youth. It is going but there is more life to come.
I want to really value the small things, to live with all my senses. Sometimes there is a security to living vicariously, but there is an empty charm awaiting to be seized.
