Let's just say it is what it is

I've been at camp for the past two weeks. It's been lovely and the change of setting is exactly what I needed.

Sometimes when you're surrounded by children and have the responsibility of taking care of them, your outlook on life changes.

The boys me and my friend Maria take care of swear so much that it gets quite tiring after a while. I once did this little test where I counted how many seconds it took until I heard a swear word or phrase and I couldn't pass the 25 second limit.

There are lots of funny things that happen that I can't quite remember. Lots of faces that I find pleasure in trying to figure out. Each child has something special about them - it's surreal. Each person has something important about them. What amazes me with the children I take care of is that among some of them, there is this profound maturity and sense of right and wrong. It's mind boggling how innocence can work that way. I mean, let's say, a lot of the boys swear and act like they know everything there is to know about sex/relationships and what not but in reality they're exactly what they are - children. You can see that the swearing and fighting that occurs between them is just an act for attention or to prove their masculinity or hide their pain/insecurity/inexperience which shouldn't be something they should be doing in my opinion.

There are lots of people from families with different social backgrounds and I don't know why, but that really fascinates me.

I find interest in trying to explain the most simple things to the children because there's this.. secret? In simplicity and few but important words.

I'm glad that hugs can make them feel the least bit better when they're feeling down about hitting themselves or missing a loved one.

One of the most wonderful moments is at night when the children are sleeping and the older people gather and share stories and eat left overs or order.

The moments I cherish are those when the night breeze offers me a sense of renaissance. The moon and the stars assure me that the infinite is chaotic but serene. The days of our youth pass by ever so slowly but we miss them ever so quickly.

I don't think I'll ever not be captivated by people's eyes and what they have to say. I love that about the human body. We, as humans, may have the ability to hide things but our body which most deem as the cell to our soul will find a way to show the effect of what we are hiding sometime or another.

Money is money. Family is family. Some things are more important than others. At least that's the way I see it.

Goodnight.

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