15/02/15

‘Maria-Eleni’ -
The combination of 
Two names.
In an emergency, by the time it gets called out,
There will be a need for some sort of a financial claim.
Maria; the elegant, the gentle, the wise.
Eleni; the selfless, the anxious, the child-like eyes.
Though I know names do not determine the nature of one’s soul
I am responsible for being myself and that is my strongest desire; my life long goal.
While Maria has been gone for five years
And Eleni loves Turkish series which bring her to tears
I will hold their names, their pronunciation will be loud;
I will leave a legacy of dignity and make them proud. 




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27/01/15

Μερικές φορές, λένε, είναι καλύτερα να κάψεις ό,τι σου προκαλεί συναισθηματική και κατά συνέπεια σωματική δυσφορία.

Μα, κάνοντάς το αυτό δεν θα αποτρέψει την αυτοκαταστροφή κι ούτε την ευθύνη της ζωής της.

Κατάλαβε τη σημασία του συντακτικού με περισσότερη εμβέλεια όταν αναγκάστηκε να αντιμετωπίσει τα γεγονότα γι’αυτά ακριβώς που ήταν κι όχι για τη διαιώνιση της ιδεαλοποίησής του.

Βρες το ρήμα. Το βρήκες; Ωραία. Η ενεργητική φωνή.. χμμ.. η αέναη κίνηση – σύμβολο της στιγμιαίας ρευστότητας.

Το υποκείμενο. Ποιός ενεργεί; Ξαναδοκίμασε. Σωστά κατάλαβες, εσύ.

Αντικείμενο; Αυτή.

<<Αν δεν τα κάνουμε τώρα, πότε θα τα κάνουμε – στα γεράματα;>>, της λέει.

Αισθάνεται ένα βάρος στο στήθος καθώς το άγχος, η ανυπομονησία και το θάρρος ξεχειλίζουν από τον καπνό του τσιγάρου.

Μα δε μπορούσε να καταλάβει για ποιο λόγο υπήρχαν τόσες προσδοκίες από τόσες απρόσωπες φωνές, τόσα απρόσωπα πρέπει, τόσα απρόσωπα ταμπού και τόσα ηθικά διλήμματα.

Είχε να φιλήσει τα χείλη κάποιου ανθρώπου περίπου 2 χρόνια.

Ποιο το νόημα να φιλάς χείλη χωρίς πάθος, χωρίς σπίθα στα μάτια και φλόγα στη καρδιά;

Τί μπορεί, άραγε, να προσφέρει η σεξουαλική ηδονή από άγνωστους και μη όταν, ασυνείδητα πολλές φορές, το ζήτημα είναι μια απλή κάλυψη του... κενού;

<<Ας είναι, ας μας βρίσκεται, ας τον έχουμε σε περίπτωση κακοκαιρίας – ο μελλοντικός εσωτερικός καιρός το πάει για βροχή.>>

Το σώμα της είναι εκεί μα το μυαλό της ταξιδεύει στη διαφορά της ώρας.

Τα χέρια της σφίγγουν στη προσπάθεια σκεπτικής απεξάρτησης.

<<Τώρα θα τα κάνουμε.>> απαντάει, <<τώρα.>>

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19. A Letter To Someone That Hurt You

Dear - ,

You came into my life a long time before I clarified your presence and before you did mine.
I really did love you, you know. After a certain point, I can’t tell if I actually knew you at all or if it was the idea I had of you and that which you chose to present. I guess some of us hide who we truly are from time to time – not out of habit but out of fear or bad timing.

It hurt like hell but it opened my eyes. It was necessary for me to reach a level of humanity I would have never reached under other circumstances.

There were moments when I couldn’t listen to some songs and would change them as soon as the first sounds played onto my headphones. Sometimes I would dream of you and wake up in peace but then realize it was a dream and get a lump in my throat as I lied to myself that it was nothing and it meant nothing; that it was just my subconscious playing tricks on me. There were moments when I’d pass someone who reminded me of your smell and my mind would go numb for a while. There were moments when I would have the legs of others on my lap or the lips of others brushing against my own and would get flashbacks of that night.

It’s in the past now, it doesn’t hurt anymore and I regret nothing.  I sometimes wish I could go to my past self and to tell her to keep going and that things will be alright. As time goes by I realize the future is unpredictable and that’s what’s fascinating to me. Hate, jealousy and hypocrisy are an absolute waste of time but so is acting selfishly.

I don't think it's a profound theory of ethics. I think it's just about being human. Treating others the way you would like to be treated. 

It’s our choices, our behavior and our responsibility to take our feelings, ideas and thoughts and implement them into actions. Sometimes, not doing so is the appropriate solution. Nontheless, at least we can say we tried. Go out, do what makes you alive, be who you want to be but remember to be kind, gentle, brave and forgiving. 

What are you waiting for?

Love,

Marilena

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30/12/14

I don’t know if it’s because it’s the end of the year but I think I need to get some thoughts out of my head.
This post will be a list and possible explanation of what I have learned this past year.
1) Taking care of yourself is just as important as taking care and caring for others. You have to trust your instincts and do what is right in order to give you peace of mind; it’s not a matter of narcissism but one of vitality with regards to your mental and physical well being.
2) Treating others with respect, being honest and maintaining an open communication can take you a long way.
3) Putting yourself out there and taking risks can be tricky but they’re worth it. It’s better to know you tried than have the doubts and ‘what ifs’.
4) Before you can be with someone in a relationship, you have to establish that you are confident and at peace by being on your own. It’s essential to love yourself (however cliche that may sound) first before you can have a commitment to any other human being or else it’s just a waste of time and feelings on any end.
5) Be open to new experiences but don’t be afraid to speak up about issues that bother you or make you feel uncomfortable. If you feel that you are not emotionally secure with someone’s behavior, it is always best to be upfront about it rather than keep it bottled up inside because you feel it’s insignificant to mention or may make the other person temporarily upset.
6) Reading up on work or any information for that matter can allow you to approach ideas from a different angle. This can further aid your understanding and personal stance on what it is you’re being exposed to and can help cultivate your sense of bioethics and philosophy of life.

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Harassment at Arlington, Virginia Sit-In: 1960

'Adolescents influenced by the American Nazi Party harass Dion Diamond during a civil rights sit-in at the Cherrydale Drug Fair in Arlington, VA June 10, 1960.
Some threw lit cigarettes at the sit-in demonstrators while others kicked them. Verbal harassment was constant.
Diamond was part of a small integrated group called the Non-Violent Action Group (NAG) that led a two week campaign that resulted in integration of restaurants in Arlington, including this Drug Fair. Restaurants in Alexandria and Fairfax, Virginia soon followed.'

(Source : https://www.flickr.com/photos/washington_area_spark/8396866644/)

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18. A Letter To Someone You Hurt

Dear -,

You’ve never told me that you’ve been hurt by me but whenever we meet, I can see it in your eyes. I’m not the type of person who purposely intends to hurt people. You’re a sensitive and loving soul who I believe finds happiness in the simple things in life. Your taste in music is awesome and your humor is quite similar to mine and I smile when I think about some things that can only be understood due to a common background of ours.

I think it’s fair to say I’m a conscientious and patient individual. I get along with quite a lot of people and try to treat each person with dignity and respect; one thing I will never understand is how a person can be extremely compatible with someone else but there is no chemistry or spark.

There have been times when I have wondered what ignites the desire for attraction. The chemical structures flourish my mind but there is no formula for love.  What keeps us awake at night with feverish thoughts of missed opportunities, unfulfilled sentiments and unspoken ‘I miss you’s or ‘I love you’s?

I won’t apologize for not reciprocating the feelings you had for me because I preferred to be honest with you rather than lead you on (which, in essence, is worse). However I will apologize if, in some way, I hurt you for not being the person you idealized me to be.

Love,
Marilena

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01/12/14

Looking at the reality of the subconscious

The staircase rises up and alters to steep downfall

With a wooden rail

Into a room of possibility and perpetual illusion

Sort of mimics the dynamic 

I sit there in hesitance and you’re

Physical

Out of nowhere you wrap your legs behind mine and

My hands clench as I try to abstain from touching but you

Start kissing my neck and I can’t

Breathe;

Slowly and hungrily you

Continue until I can’t help but let out a sound and

Wake up.

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